I have since developed a huge tolerance to the things that make you want to fast forward life. For years now, I’ve been devoid of fear, including fear of death. In addition, I can steel myself against all pain, mental or physical.

Cannabis is a great aid in dealing with stress and anxiety. Nevertheless, it generally increases your quality of life, though its availability varies with location and legality.

When I think of death now, I see it as one of the few things that can potentially answer so many of my existential questions. I am eager for death in that respect, but I will live my life in the meantime, experiencing pleasure simply because I can; for pleasure exists relative to pain.

That’s right. I have had that experience myself. My suicidal nature has made me quite brave and quite bold. I have realized that life is a means, not an ends. People treat life as an ends, but then, they treat money as an ends, too and are generally means-and-ends confused.

So, now, I am investing my life, rather than preserving it.

The only way that I have found to make life worth living is to do something with it that is worth more to me than my life. And the best way to live, as far as I have found, is to be unattached to whether I live or die. I enjoy things much more now that I am unafraid of death.

“The Chi cannot flow where there is fear”

There may be a lot of enlightenment in these experiences for you.

No truer words have ever been said.