Tag Archives: depression

Singularity

Posted on July 2, 2010 by Fred

In 1993, mathematics professor/science fiction author Vernor Vinge wrote a now-famous article entitled “The Coming Technological Singularity“. He talked about the future, and a time when humanity will create an artificial (i.e. computer) superhuman intelligence, and the consequences of that … Continue reading →

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The Road to La Mancha

Posted on August 20, 2009 by Fred

It has occurred to me just recently that I don’t really…. dream, anymore. Once upon a time, I had images in my head that I might be a writer. A musician. That energy of youth when the world lies at … Continue reading →

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…it brings on many changes…

Posted on July 9, 2009 by Fred

Over the past ten years, I’ve sadly observed that depression makes you a coward. I avoid confrontation like the plague, and despite my abilities, I’ve even avoided pursuing those things at which I would likely be successful… …because I might … Continue reading →

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Time and Tide Melts the Snowman

Posted on June 15, 2009 by Fred

Lately I’ve been feeling… not “good” exactly, but… I guess I’ll take a tip from Orwell and say I’m doing “unbad”. I’ve gotten into a sort of low key vibe where I’m just sort of rolling along day to day. … Continue reading →

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Disconnect

Posted on April 28, 2009 by Fred

In the first post to this blog, I described how my strong connection to my family kept me alive during a bad period about ten years ago. Recently, that connection is slipping. Well, perhaps “recently” is not the right word. … Continue reading →

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Neverwas

Posted on April 17, 2009 by Fred

Few modern analysts dispute the historical and modern relevance of regret sales; rather, it is the lifestyle and practices of the actual regret salesman that raises issues. Regrets, naturally, come in various flavors and qualities, the best by far always … Continue reading →

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Posted on October 23, 2008 by Fred

I was raped.  I was raped.  I was raped.  I was raped.  I was raped.  I was raped.  It’s been 14 years and I’ve kept silent and it’s eaten me alive and it’s destroyed my life and I couldn’t say … Continue reading →

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Pendulum

Posted on October 15, 2008 by Fred

When I was in college, Douglas Adams came to do a book signing.  If you don’t know the name, this is the guy who wrote, among other things, The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy.  He was promoting a new book … Continue reading →

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Any Landing You Can Walk Away From….

Posted on July 30, 2008 by Fred

You’ve all heard the old joke about flying an airplane — “Any landing you can walk away from is a good one.” Depression has a similar one (that I just made up): Any day I get out of bed is … Continue reading →

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Incoming

Posted on July 29, 2008 by Fred

Received an email today.  Partial quote: I… was struck by the similarity in our situations. I am myself a literal genius, I’ve enjoyed uninhibited academic success my entire life, yet I don’t think I’ve ever actually had a real friend. … Continue reading →

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