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Time and Tide Melts the Snowman

Lately I’ve been feeling… not “good” exactly, but… I guess I’ll take a tip from Orwell and say I’m doing “unbad”. I’ve gotten into a sort of low key vibe where I’m just sort of rolling along day to day. … Continue reading

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Disconnect

In the first post to this blog, I described how my strong connection to my family kept me alive during a bad period about ten years ago. Recently, that connection is slipping. Well, perhaps “recently” is not the right word. … Continue reading

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Neverwas

Few modern analysts dispute the historical and modern relevance of regret sales; rather, it is the lifestyle and practices of the actual regret salesman that raises issues. Regrets, naturally, come in various flavors and qualities, the best by far always … Continue reading

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I was raped.  I was raped.  I was raped.  I was raped.  I was raped.  I was raped.  It’s been 14 years and I’ve kept silent and it’s eaten me alive and it’s destroyed my life and I couldn’t say … Continue reading

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Pendulum

I once went to a Douglas Adams book signing.  If you don’t know the name, this is the guy who wrote, among other things, The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy.  He was promoting a new book he had written — his … Continue reading

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Any Landing You Can Walk Away From….

You’ve all heard the old joke about flying an airplane — “Any landing you can walk away from is a good one.” Depression has a similar one (that I just made up): Any day I get out of bed is … Continue reading

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Incoming

Received an email today.  Partial quote: I… was struck by the similarity in our situations. I am myself a literal genius, I’ve enjoyed uninhibited academic success my entire life, yet I don’t think I’ve ever actually had a real friend. … Continue reading

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Code of Silence

For over a decade I’ve been slowly eaten alive.  The fact that noone knows what happened has made it bearable; and at the same time the act of keeping it hidden has allowed that single incident fester and destroy far more than it could have if… Continue reading

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The Abyss Stares Back

By way of introduction, I will quote something that I wrote a while back, in response to a discussion of suicide. I have stared into that abyss. Nearly ten years ago I rode that edge a bit too closely, and … Continue reading

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